What a Fall it’s been!
If I am totally honest, I have struggled hard with constant low grade anxiety, some sadness and that mid-morning tired feeling that is, well, exhausting. I’m not without a pool of good reasons for the state of my heart and mind. Even so, it’s been a hard Fall.
My boy has been in Italy for almost four months. His absence is the equivalent of removing one of the strong rocks in my life. Perhaps that’s an odd thing for a mom to say about a child, but that’s who Quinn has been for me. He comes home soon, only to leave again in January. Woe is me as my nest empties.
At the office, I had several difficult issues to work through. As a professional woman with a commitment to excellence and desire to deliver a job well done, those obstacles were/are hard! I’m reminded by my wise counselor Dan not to personalize the professional – – what a difficult practice!
When my self talk and prayers hit bottom, I force myself to speak truth to myself.
I remind myself of my worth by framing my purpose in light of Jesus’ love and kindness toward me. It would be nice if my world served up everything I needed to feel secure and confident. But then I would have no need for God.
I keep a quote in my planner to counteract my performance oriented personality. I feel life rise up in me when I am kind to myself in this way.
There is no shame in being proud of the smallest amount of progress.Morgan Harper Nichols
I acknowledge that my soul craves connection. In the big picture, we all need it. As an individual, connection keeps my head above water.
I try not to overlook the small things that life delivers when the big things are not in view. Small things like – Mom, will you bake banana bread? The girls love your recipe. Or, my mom and her husband picking up a Christmas tree for me and getting it on the stand.
Friends, this has been my hard Fall.
Despite myself, I pursued intentional joy during my hard Fall – – which brings me to my Fall bucket list share.
As you know, my bucket lists are intentional guides to help us live out love, self-care, creativity and hospitality in every season.
As we say #GoobyeFall, I am sharing with you some of the pics from my Fall bucket List adventure. I hope you enjoy the pics. I truly hope you too pursued joy this Fall.